Friday, September 17, 2004

I'm a bit confused. Being 16 is all well and good, I have my permit and all and I'm feeling older and wondering if I couldn't have done more then I have, bit it is what it is and it was what it was and it will be what it will be. But still, I'm confused and I don't know why. Whatever, it'll work itself pout or ill figure it out or something. By the way, high school sucks, and so does high school romance/ lack there of. Maybe I should be happy that I'm single and have been for 16 years, that I haven't had to deal with all the shit teenage couples do and had all that drama. But id rather have had that then be in the dark and wondering why, wondering what I've been missing, well, it'll all make sense one day, one day ill either look back and say, "I'm so glad I didn't have to deal with the shit I heard about from my friends" or ill say " damnit, I wish I had had those experiences when it really didn't matter and when it wasn't a big deal in anyway shape or form". Well, either way, right now I'm wishing I could say that I was happy I had had those experiences or wished I hadn't. At least have them now when it has no meaning other then a highschool romance. Well, I like someone, this is what inspired that rant so, now, I'm done. Thank you for your time.